So I have been a little MIA... actually a little more than little. I haven't written since May and honestly I don't even really have a good excuse as to why.
Those same lame excuses are the reason we haven't posted any new YouTube videos in forever... When things start piling up on the back burner it becomes easy for them to stay there but sadly sometimes we put the things we enjoy most on the back burner and we suffer from it before we realize it.
So I have a goal, one of those random times of the year goals, one of those epiphany during shavasana goals. I want to reignite my passions, dreams, and crazy goals that I once was driven by. Our life has changed so much since our move, In more ways than one that change has been for the absolute better. In some small way though I have lost parts of myself in this new environment, I feel so different from the people who I am surrounded by and the desires that I once had have slowly began to fade away, losing the essence of who I once was.
Roughly 2 months ago I closed the business I had built over the past 12yrs and began to really make Troy my home. I knew starting over with a career here would have some difficulties but I'll admit I came into things a little unrealistic and I wasn't prepared for just how crazy things would be. I have been trying to fit a new mold and take a newer approach to work but with frustrating results at times.
Then it hit me, What if the reason things are so difficult right now is because I know that I am not doing what God has called me to do. I have felt unsettled in ways as of recent, don't get me wrong though I am seriously blessed in life and I KNOW IT! We are in such a good place right now in our marriage, our family, relationships, and our church but I still struggle with unfulfillment. I have began to realize that the unfulfillment and frustration that I have been experiencing is from laying down my passions. I want to train, write, vlog, and run a business that actually leaves the world a better place. Earth To Us Yoga was a dream, a dream formed in a tiny house but with a big purpose. I want others to be impacted by the power of yoga through a body, mind, and spiritual transformation. I want people to know they have choices in life and in one split second they can make the decision to never be the same again and then through Christ act on that and walk in a new perspective and freedom.
I have let that physical dream fade but that spark has still been in my heart. I am choosing right now in this very moment to pour so much fuel on that spark that the ignition of that fire drives out any doubt and darkness. When YOU have a passion for something it may be easy to set it aside but when God has given you a passion for something I feel like putting it aside just leads to a sense of unfulfillment and emptiness.
So here I am no steps closer (yet..) but with a pure and strong desire to reignite a passion given by God that I once put aside. One that I sat aside out of fear, Pure fear.... it's so hard to say that but it is honesty. Sooo much stinking fear, fear of failure, fear of judgment, fear of not being accepted, and so on. Why in the world do we let fear take control of us when the actual creator of the universe says "DO NOT FEAR". You'd think that would be enough but our human nature holds on to that fear and uncertainty. I know though deep in my soul that I am more afraid of not doing it than I am moving forward and I believe that is a powerful place to be. When the fear of staying the same out weighs the fear of change then big things begin to happen.
So where do I go from here? Back to where is all began. I go to my mat and I go to God, asking for His guidance every step of the way and I WILL watch Earth To Us Yoga become more than just a dream.
What are your dreams, desires, and crazy visions? Have you put your passions aside?
Be the change and make the change. START NOW!
Those same lame excuses are the reason we haven't posted any new YouTube videos in forever... When things start piling up on the back burner it becomes easy for them to stay there but sadly sometimes we put the things we enjoy most on the back burner and we suffer from it before we realize it.
So I have a goal, one of those random times of the year goals, one of those epiphany during shavasana goals. I want to reignite my passions, dreams, and crazy goals that I once was driven by. Our life has changed so much since our move, In more ways than one that change has been for the absolute better. In some small way though I have lost parts of myself in this new environment, I feel so different from the people who I am surrounded by and the desires that I once had have slowly began to fade away, losing the essence of who I once was.
Roughly 2 months ago I closed the business I had built over the past 12yrs and began to really make Troy my home. I knew starting over with a career here would have some difficulties but I'll admit I came into things a little unrealistic and I wasn't prepared for just how crazy things would be. I have been trying to fit a new mold and take a newer approach to work but with frustrating results at times.
Then it hit me, What if the reason things are so difficult right now is because I know that I am not doing what God has called me to do. I have felt unsettled in ways as of recent, don't get me wrong though I am seriously blessed in life and I KNOW IT! We are in such a good place right now in our marriage, our family, relationships, and our church but I still struggle with unfulfillment. I have began to realize that the unfulfillment and frustration that I have been experiencing is from laying down my passions. I want to train, write, vlog, and run a business that actually leaves the world a better place. Earth To Us Yoga was a dream, a dream formed in a tiny house but with a big purpose. I want others to be impacted by the power of yoga through a body, mind, and spiritual transformation. I want people to know they have choices in life and in one split second they can make the decision to never be the same again and then through Christ act on that and walk in a new perspective and freedom.
I have let that physical dream fade but that spark has still been in my heart. I am choosing right now in this very moment to pour so much fuel on that spark that the ignition of that fire drives out any doubt and darkness. When YOU have a passion for something it may be easy to set it aside but when God has given you a passion for something I feel like putting it aside just leads to a sense of unfulfillment and emptiness.
So here I am no steps closer (yet..) but with a pure and strong desire to reignite a passion given by God that I once put aside. One that I sat aside out of fear, Pure fear.... it's so hard to say that but it is honesty. Sooo much stinking fear, fear of failure, fear of judgment, fear of not being accepted, and so on. Why in the world do we let fear take control of us when the actual creator of the universe says "DO NOT FEAR". You'd think that would be enough but our human nature holds on to that fear and uncertainty. I know though deep in my soul that I am more afraid of not doing it than I am moving forward and I believe that is a powerful place to be. When the fear of staying the same out weighs the fear of change then big things begin to happen.
So where do I go from here? Back to where is all began. I go to my mat and I go to God, asking for His guidance every step of the way and I WILL watch Earth To Us Yoga become more than just a dream.
What are your dreams, desires, and crazy visions? Have you put your passions aside?
Be the change and make the change. START NOW!
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